Breaking up is an OPTION but NEVER the SOLUTION.

Actually, I told someone about this already and then few deys ago, my friend put on a status. It was the best status I've read. Why? I can relate to it. I already told my girlfriend that no matter what happens, even if the pain is much worse. Breaking up is never the solution to any problem. It will just make the pain worst. What I'm curious about is what drives girls or boys leave their loved one? I've done it before because I made a promise. But actually, I don't like to hurt others. I care about what they feel. It breaks my heart if I hurt someone. I want HER to be happy. Maybe it's the feelings that change. Maybe it's the change. The change one encounters as the relationship moves along. I never experienced that. Someone told me that I'm such a dickhead for letting her hurt me that much. Why endure such thing when you can end it? I don't like to end a relationship. As long as I can handle it, I will never give up on something which has become a part of my life. She became a part of my daily routine. Texting her. Everything about her. That's why I can't break her heart. Yeah, I admit that sometimes I'm being immature. But I will NEVER EVER LEAVE HER. No matter what happens, I won't do it. Even if the problem has no solution, which is quite impossible, I will not do it. I promised her that I won't leave her no matter what. I hope she won't give up on me either. I just hope that this relationship will last. It will if we believe.

Fuck you. A LOT.

What will you feel if one day, your loved one will send a text message to you. You read, "Fuck you. A LOT." I really don't understand what makes people say those words. Especially to your loved one. I can't barely understand the fact that it can hurt someone. Maybe because of the anger? Maybe other things too. But the thing I don't understand the most is that I feel nothing when I receive texts like that. I really don't understand. It's a mixed feeling actually. Two contradicting feelings which cancel out each other therefore feeling nothing. I feel hurt. Of course! I feel hurt because the girl I love sent a text message saying "fuck you" instead of "i love you". The contradicting feeling is that it's okay for me. I don't know but I think its the love that makes me feel that. I love her so much that even if she hurts me so much I can withstand anything. I really love her. I am willing to do anything for her. I wish she would cool her mind when I talk to her one of these days. Talking to her these days are uncertain because she's in the province. Hayyy. I wish she would text me so we could communicate and so I can apologize to her.

Actually, one of my friend told me that I should not let her take me down. My friend said, "Wag mo siyang sanayin sa ganyan. Lagi ka na lang niya inaaway. Di mo ba napapansin na inuunder ka niya?" I answered him with, "Okay lang sa akin. Mahal ko naman siya. Iniintindi ko naman siya lagi eh. Kaya okay lang. Isa pa, ayoko taasan yung pride ko." That's what I answered him. I don't care what others think of me. As long as I love what I'm doing, I am willing to risk anything just for her. I reallyyyyy love herrrrrr. I am madly in love with her. 

If you are reading this, I hope you'd understand me. I'm really sorry for my stupidity. I'm sorry for making you wait for a long time. I'm really sorry. It's okay that you hurt me, as long as I won't hurt you back. I love you. :(

Alam mo yung feeling na di mo napapasaya yung girlfriend mo? Yun ang nararamdaman ko. Yung feeling na pinaramdam mo sa girlfriend mo na isa siyang halimaw. Feeling tuloy ng girlfriend mo na ampanget panget niya. Yung feeling feeling na sobrang nadown ang girlfriend mo dahil sinabi mo? Yung feeling na ayaw na ng girlfriend na icompliment mo siya kasi alam niyang PURO kasinungalingan lang at PAMPAGAAN lang ng LOOB lahat ng sinasabi mo.

That's how I feel. Lahat ng sisi nasa akin. Dahil sa nangyari sa amin. Putangina ko. Napakawalang kwenta akong boyfriend. Isang boyfriend na hinayaan lang na maramdaman ng girlfriend nya yun? Tama ba naman yun? Boyfriend ka tapos sasabihan mo halimaw girlfriend mo? Putangina lang. Ako kasi yung tipong gustong gusto icompliment yung girl kasi I know it boosts their self esteem and they'll believe in themselves better. Ang boyfriend din dapat cinocompliment ang girlfriend kasi it adds a sweet effect. Hindi ba't mas nagiging sweet pag ganun? Na sabihan mo yung girl na "You look beautiful." kahit yung ganyan lang. Honestly, nung sinabi nya sa akin na natuwa siya for making her feel special. Alam mo yung feeling ko nun. Yung parang ansaya-saya kasi you made a girl feel beautiful like she's the only girl. Yun sana yung gusto kong iparamdam sa kanya. Siya lang ang kaisa-isang babae sa akin at siya ang pinakamaganda para sa akin. Pero ngayon, wala na. Di ko na pwede gawin yun. Dahil yun sa akin. Dahil sa ginawa ko. Katarantaduhan ba naman eh. Tama siya. Kahit pa man joke yun. It makes a girl feel na wala naman talagang special sa kanya. It made her feel so down. So fcked up. Gusto ko sana ituloy kaso she'll hate me for saying another compliment. Now I know that compliments are just lies to make someone feel better. It just makes me feel fcking worse. I'm beginning to question myself whether if I should call myself a boyfriend or not. Because I know for a fact that a boyfriend does not let her girlfriend down and in that case I'm not in. It just affects me alot. A real lot. I'm not worthy to be called a boyfriend. NOT WORTHY OF ANYTHING. I'm just a boy inlove with a girl.

Zero no Tsukaima

Finally! Today, I've been able to finish the whole Zero no Tsukaima series. It's been a year since I finished the 3rd season. Since I have no time to watch the fourth season, which was released earlier this year and was finished before June, if I'm not mistaken. Now, I can finally say that I have finished it. So here's a short review of the fourth season, also known as: Zero no Tsukaima F.

The fourth season is basically about the the four void mages. So here's a SPOILER WARNING to all those otakus who still hasn't finished the series. So there were four void mages in Halkgenia. One of them was Louise. Then it was later revelead that Tiffania was also one. The other two were Vittorio or the Pope of Romalia and King Joseph of Gallia. Julio was also revealed to be Windalfr or "Left hand of God". During the middle episodes, it was revealed that the accident,which happened when Tiffania was summoning a familiar and Saita came out of the portal, made Saito Tiffania's familiar too. The contract was made when Tiffa and Saito kissed. Being a familiar of another void mage meant he became another legendary familiar. He was Gandalfr or "Right hand of God" as well as Lifdrasir or "Heart of God". As Lidrasir, he could boost any void mages power. But in exchange of that power, every time he uses it, he also depletes his life. Louise heard it from the Pope and hoped that there would be no global crisis. Then a global disaster happened. The ancient dragon has awakened and they learned that it was awakened to devour void mages thus making it stronger. This happened when the ancient dragon ate Vittorio whole (SPOILER). It was it a pupa like stage and then it developed wings. Deflinger was destroyed as Saito was protecting the Pope from the dragon's attack. Also, Louise sent back Saito to Japan. That scene really made me cry. Louise told Saito that the last face Saito seen was Louise's smile. Saito, attempted to return his home but he made a statement, "A man is not a man if he can't make his girl smile." He saw in a newspaper that it was the same day he was transported into Halkgenia. Making a reference to the 1st season. He tried to fly into the solar eclipse and succeded. While flying the plane, another deflinger appeared on screen and Saito was happy to see Derf again! He also told Saito that all this time, he was sleeping inside Saito's rune. Afterwards, they defeated the Ancient Dragon and Saito proposed to Louise. They got married and I think they're gonna spend their honeymoon in Japan. The last scene showed Saito and Louise, hand in hand, in front of the Hiraga residence.

This is why I hate endings! I have loved the characters and the cute storyline. This is one of my favorite animes and I must admit that I will surely miss this series. Maybe someday, I'm gonna rewatch this for the sake of the memories. I also wish that this would not be the last season. But it was stated that this was the concluding season of ZNT. If they would not make a 5th season, they should make an OVA about Louise and Saito's stay in Japan. Fans will surely love it! That's it. I'm finished with Zero no Tsukaima. 'Till next time!

NEXT ANIME TO WATCH: HIGH SCHOOL OF THE DEAD

Btw, here are some screenshots from the 4th season! Hope you like it!

Lemon-chan! FTW!

Awkward....

The Magic Mirror feat. the Affair Between Saito and Henrietta
Too bad I can't find a picture of  Saito and Henrietta's kiss.

The Lord of De Ornielle with Louise, Siesta and Tabitha

Lukshana, the Desert Elf

The Contract between Saito and Tiffania was made

HAHAHA! This made me laugh!

Queen Henrietta of Tristain <3

The Wedding of Louise and Saito

Last Kiss of Saito and Louise in Zero no Tsukaima

Portal to Japan

Saito and Louise at a Train in Japan

Alright! The last picture was my fave. It was absolutely cute. I can't find a picture of the last scene in which Louise and Saito was standing infront of Hiraga residence. I give this anime a score of 9.5/10. I definitely recommend this to those otakus that like a fantasy story with a little bit of harem and love story and comedy. I also recommend this to tsundere lovers as Louise is considered as one of them and she was voiced by Rie Kugimiya! She's my favorite seiyuu or voice actor. She also voiced Aisaka Taiga, Nagi Sanzenin and Shana!
That's all! Thank you for reading my mini review!

Zero no Tsukaima

I will probably post a review of Zero no Tsukaima from Season 1 to Season 4 this coming weekend. I have to finish first Zero no Tsukaima F before I do that. The story is really going more interesting so far. I just love Tiffania and Henrietta. <3

OMG. So Kawaiiiiiiii!

(L-R, Tabitha, Tiffania, Louise, Siesta, Henrietta from Zero no Tsukaima)

I wonder where I can buy them?

But I have no money.... :(

Reading List:

• Hayate no Gotoku!
• Kaichou wa Maid-sama
• Hajimete no Aku
• Mayo Chiki!
• Sword Art Online (light novel)
• Oda Nobuna no Yabo

Anime Watch List (in order)

1. Zero no Tsukaima F
2. High School of the Dead
3. Sword Art Online
4. Baka to Test
5. Kokoro Connect
6. Oda Nobuna no Yabo